Dusk

As the sun begins to set pink clouds shroud his arrival with dusk

I steal one last glimpse of the beauty above then slip back and slam the door tight

Darting to each window securing each lock

Blinds pulled down and curtains drawn close

The lamps hastily off not one drop of light invades this self-made coffin

Standing in the middle of the room I no longer hear the birds with songs

The crickets have left

Even the mosquitoes are gone

I take to the couch and curl into a ball

Soft velour cover pulled and snaked tight about my frame

A weak shield from him and his dark games

Moments seem like lifetimes as I sit and pray

That for once this will be the day

That he has forgotten where I live and wishes not my mind to play

Slumber sets in when I let down my guard for only an eye's blink 

Dreams begin but nightmares soon invade

He once again has found my secret space

The walls of my mind expand to meet the expectations of his demons

I succumb to the torture throughout the evening

Tighter I curl into a fetal position

My shield has slipped free now belonging to the floor

In repose I whimper but on he goes

Then  mercy imposes with dawn's breaking light

His back turns abruptly and he disappears from sight

I wake in a sweat, sleep clinging to my skin

But tonight he will return to begin this all once again...

~Divine Chaos

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Play On

My dreams feel like the warmth of our entangled thoughts.

My dreams look like your wild abandon.

My dreams taste like raindrops on your skin.

My dreams sound like the beat of your heart

.

My dreams with you my proudest sin.

My dreams repeat each moment of the day

.

Play on.

~Divine Chaos

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Forgotten Reminders

Realization crashes over him
There is nothing more for him here
The love that once resided here has long since left
The shadows play across the wall
Revealing the light spots where pictures once stood

One hand touches the wall where his favorite photo hung
His eyes then look to the worn floorboards where it had crashed to so long ago
He turns slowly, eyes moving up the steps
Recalling the days when laughter was heard from above and below

A cold wind blows, his arms tuck tight to his sides
The shattered window allows this reminder tonight.
He shuffles slowly to the door not wishing to be here anymore
As he reaches the door he notices its slight movement
How long had he promised to fix that for her

He groans with pain and flings the door wide
Meeting the world again ripped of his pride
As he crosses the walk he notices her favorite tree
A circuit about it as one hand rubs the bark
Snow brushed aside now reveals the old marks

A crude heart carved upon the tree's skin
I love you now and I loved you then is carved within.
Had he known she had left such love letters would he have fixed the door?
Or would he still be right here wishing to hold her once more...

~DivineChaos

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The Other Side of When

Turmoil. Desperation. Life is incomplete.

That which is most desired not within reach.

Living a life in question is a depressing feat.

Turmoil, desperation; life is incomplete.

In paradise my hope resides awaiting our longed for meet.

Society and humankind, pleasure and pain they teach.

Turmoil. Desperation. Life is incomplete.

That which is most desired not within reach…

~DivineChaos

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Twisted Ears

I went into hiding to find myself

the part of me that no longer feels connected to the rest

I have laughed and cried

I have yet though to find the answer to the oh so many whys

I shall return, I always do

and perhaps I will turn a phrase or two

one thing is embedded now deep within

Vacations are merely breaks love always lies within

So upon my return please wait with a smile

I sit here pondering for this now short while

How I will take hold of your mind by bending your ear

~DivineChaos

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The Poetry Challenge - Dreary Setting - 07/07/13- The Top Three!!!

Wow. Found by this blogger, I followed back to his blog and found this poetry challenge. Totally lifted my spirits to see my poem here. And the other two poems are truly wonderful so have a look at all of the poet's pages.
~DivineChaos

Mindshift

How I ended up here is a mystery
looking over a shoulder no path is left behind

Gaze shifts forward unable to cut through the brush
swaying for a moment in the warm embrace of dusk

Body puddles into a neat mess upon the unkempt grass
mind clouded by fear's heavy grasp

Dizzying are the thoughts that kick up the winds of nightmares past
choking to breathe the heart skips a beat

Ears prick suddenly at the whisper of tiny feet
shifting to the side curled into a crescent

The fairies appear with a dim glow
fluttering overhead their dust drifting like snow

Calm now is the body in sweet repose
kept under moonbeams that light the way

For dreams and wishes to come out to play
time moves so quickly it seems

Shooing away the last vestige of dreams
stretching out the kinks eyes finally blink

Forgetting so quickly the alternate universe
to stand now again on solid ground

The fairies have left, nowhere to be found
a sigh settles upon the morning breeze

The dream world, once more,has set you free.

~DivineChaos

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Park Here

Wild abandon
I felt it there with you
Flying through the air
Laughter ringing off the clouds
Jumping free
Gliding within gravity for a moment's time
Out of breath
Silly grins painted across our faces
Push up and we're off again
Eyes closed, head tossed back
Arms aloft like an acrobat
Spinning circles for no reason at all
We were one, feeling ten feet tall
Wild abandon
I felt it there with you
Don't deny it
You felt it too.

~DivineChaos

Dedicated to my daughter and a day in the park

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Join Me?

On your soapbox

Filled with self righteous indignation

Chest blown up

Inflating the ego echoing from your mouthpiece

Kill the messenger

Smite those who disagree

The only one right here is me, me, me.

Wave the gawkers over

Make yourself feel powerful with their proximity

Failing though to hear the laughter they hide

Agree to disagree

Oh no, not here

Only my arguments are valid

To hell with the rest of you.

This soapbox has given me fame

See, they listen now they know my name.

The avarice is recycled through

And now all the lookers on begin to spread apart

Come down from there

your vision is out of line

You may taint the young mind.

Once tainted what will we do?

Living in a world filled one by one

with people just like you...

~DivineChaos

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Within

Aim high
Swing low
figures, you wouldn't know

Stand still
Breathe in
recognize all your sins

Hold fast
Keep faith
no need to run you're finally safe

Believe the voices
Repeat their song
another day will be gone before long

Expand
Release
now's your chance, search for peace

Reflect
Decide
the answer was always on the inside.

~DivineChaos

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Vandalized

Breaking and entering
The door still ajar allows moon rays to prism
Upon shards of glass left behind
Would be vandals attempting
To steal what is mine

Squirreled away safe
Beneath the spot where wooden boards chafe
I laugh aloud at what you were unable to take
The crime committed but your reward remains untaken

The corner of one lip curls upwards in delight
Safe still are mementos and tokens
Of the girl who reads and leaves books open
Quick was your depart a mess left in your wake
But not one piece of this soul were you able to have me forsake.

~DivineChaos
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Minnows

Minnows swim through the waves of thought

Making no headway through the mental onslaught

Some fall back, exhaustion crippling

Others fight on never attaining victory

Then there are those who see the truth

The soul of this body no longer possesses youth

Aged and withered the same angry crash of waves upon the northern shore

The fog hangs low here no respite for the swimmers' chore

The sun drops lower leaving the world a touch dimmer

The last minnow slows and takes a deep breath

One look around, no one is left

Finding his breath, gills expand

the mind of this body is dreary land.

~DivineChaos

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The Unfolding

As I see it your words ought to reflect your intentions

No second guessing, no circumventing

As I see it your actions ought to be kind

Not one lonely person left behind

As I see it your deeds should produce  magic and butterflies

Not emphasize the hidden disguise

As I see it I am divine

Not  flawed like the thoughts of me you behold in your mind

Step back and watch my story unfold...

~DivineChaos

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Blur

Again it starts like any other day,

I wake up to find myself in yet another haze.

Conditions to be met, obligations to be kept.

Unknown people to hurt me still to be met.

The shackle around my ankle feels tighter today

The board across my shoulders feels more tightly strung.

The spirit within feels more tightly wound.

Wading through fog, no clear end in sight

No clear distinction of wrong nor right

The day slips on into another fret filed night.

Nightmares and Monsters pay once again their respects

Etched upon the soul the evils they wrought and spent.

Tragic are the losses, lackluster are the wins

In this game called life there is only one end.

And each man will choose his life's personal sin.

Another night rolls into day stirring up the dust upon the winds.

No way to win and no way to play, the game evolves  for those willing to still play

The lines  blur between reality and fantasy this and every day,

Narrow are my soles that walk the blurred line

Is it even possible to find the destination in time?

Go! Advance! Push with force.

Cry a little louder, try a little harder, walk just a bit farther.

Forget there are no loved ones' arms to surround you

Just the ones waiting for your fall so your mind will be bound to your failures.

The blurred lines  never end, and once more a new day begins.

The haze as always has again settled in...

~DivineChaos

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Slipping on a Star

Sitting beside you yet watching from afar

Afraid of being myself,  I am not certain who you are.

Moments feel like lifetimes each one allowed to slip by.

You don't question my silence and I don't wonder why.

Why do we pretend we care ,when the reality is not one is willing to share?

Drifting along one another in life, neither one cares about the others duress.

Typical, it seems for each one us to paddle along ungiving of trust.

Is it really so hard to be who we are; if I recall we are all made from stars.

So again I sit here beside you still not certain of who you are.

but this time your silence leaves no scar.

~DivineChaos

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Diamond in the Soul

Sleep evades

thoughts permeate.

At the fork in the road

which route to take.

Both are covered with

dust and debris

but one must surely be marked for me.

A hand digs deep

to pull loose the petals that made the flower weep.

Fingers clench tightly over the loves me and loves me nots

Eyes close, heart in a knot.

The mind is shushed with determined will.

Then the first step is taken with calculated risk

One petal dropped to find the way back

Never trusting the soul to pick the right path.

Along the way there are potholes and storms

but when looking over a shoulder the path reveals

The wind has swept the petals away

Faith in them was of little consequence

It was the faith in the first step, the journey

that time spent

And to look at me now, who knows where it all went.

Shoulders are broader though their load is much lighter

The heart that was once torn has been worn like coal

to reveal the diamond within the soul.

~DivineChaos

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I am

I am most times not who or what people think I am.

Set aside your preconceived notions.

Look deeper than the superficial.

Find the complex soul that lays beneath.

I simply am.

~DivineChaos

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Dancing With Death

The leaf that falls from the grace of the branch in autumn is not dead.

Its hidden colors have finally been realized as it dances upon the wind's gust.

It settles upon the pavers for a short rest,then is once more kicked up again within the tempest.

Pivoting, Pirouetting, Wheeling then descending.

A soul happens along and hears the leaf speak in its quiet tone beckoning one last caress.

Within the hand's gentle embrace the leaf lingers as its adorer outlines each veins trail with wide eyes.

Their time together has passed.

Taking flight once more leaving its lover with wonder at the colors and the grace.

A brush with the idea of dancing with death.

~Divine Chaos

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